So I haven't posted since Sept. A lot has happened. The bf has put in his two weeks at work so that he will be able to turn himself into the police the second week of Jan '12. The only problem is that I've tried to tell him he's not coming back and that I'm not bailing him out. His response was to start lavishing the love and attention I've been missing. He's done chores, completed projects and even written me a poem. He's going to make this as difficult as possible... but I simply can't bring him back. My husband came back to the state today apparently but according to him he has no control over plans and doubts he will have time to see me between family stuff, friend stuff and the wedding of a former LPO. Lame, but I don't really blame him. I've been telling him for months that the bf would be gone, but he still isn't. He probably doesn't believe a word I say anymore. I've changed my eating habits and begun working out again. As a result I've lost nearly 30lbs and I'm currently hovering at 145. Tonight is New Years and I'm putting away groceries and cleaning the house while the bf takes a nap. Double lame. But this will be the start of a new me.
This year will be the year of me. I will not compromise. I will pay off debt. I will save money. I will lavish my animals with love. I will back off from the ex and let him cope however he needs to. I will work hard. I will live responsibly. I will continue to lose weight. I will dance.
